6.

Many nights now, I miss you so much it hurts.

And I don't mean just inside, i mean physically as well. Like my whole body is in pain, and I hate it.

I feel like I don't have the strength to stay here anymore. What the fuck, why the fuck am I doing here. Is it worth it? Is it worth being so far away from you? Leaving you alone? Missing out on so many things with you?

And then I feel selfish. I know I want to see you, feel you, very much. And so do you.

But the bigger picture is...you work so hard for money.

If I quit now, forever I will be depending on you to work hard.

And I don't want that, cause I want to help you as well.

Doesn't change the fact I miss you alot and wish I could be right there next to you.

Sigh...my body is in pain again and I feel like crying.

It does get very frustrating. I feel frustrated.

Frustrated that time can't pass soon enough.